Saturday, September 06, 2008

Friday Night Thoughts and Music


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I am sick of the politics and the lies and the angst that go with it...the churning of events....Someday I want to be able to fly again...go away...to Sri Lanka..or Thailand or Bali.....it's funny ...but Youtube has enriched my life and even made me homesick for places I have never been...So I am so bittersweet grateful....I hope that we have new leadership...and I get taken off the No Fly List..and we find some semblence of sanity again...I hope I pray...Because I have seen it all come "Undone"...

Duran Duran..."Saving a prayer"....

I just want an "Ordinary World"...again....somehow,,,

I am just waiting for a New Day...."Sunrise"

14 comments:

Valérie said...

Enigma4ever,

Hello again...

You sound so sad it makes me sad too. When I hear you, I hear Stiletto. No home, outcast. But she has made some good friends on the blog and in real life too. She was a frightened kitten when she arrived here and now she is still scared of being deported, but not as much, and she is kicking things around in a big way, LOL.

I think you would like her. She is not very easy to get on with sometimes because she is very impatient I think, and sometimes people call her a spoiled rotten Russian bitch because she wins the hearts of other people and it annoys them.

I see some of the articles you write on your Summer blog, and it makes me smile because although I don't know anything really about political events in America, I watch the things being said on PP where there are several Americans regular people, and I am imagining what a riot it would be if you said there what you think, LOL.

Anyway, I am still looking for Romeo, but not luck. I would like to know his real name.

Valérie.
PS: thank you for the lovely email you sent to Whynot. He transmitted it to me. I think you are a very nice woman. You would feel at home in PP, many very nice people from many parts of the world.

enigma4ever said...

when I come off the No Fly List I will come to Paris one day....I have promised myself that..


thank you valerie...
merci mon ami....

the walking man said...

Darlin'...I think that it is a bit to soon to be saddened by the state of the nation and the world at large around it.

I made a statement somewhere else that said "I simply don't care anymore." I don't.

I will lead my life as I lead it and the rest who don't like it can be sold to the devil. I'm not waiting for a new day, another day or, a better day; life's to short to wait.

You have your morality and I assume are on "the list" because of that...fuck 'em. You forget all flight worth taking, that has any real meaning, is the flight within the spirit?

You can't go here, can't go there...so? Can you go to the timeless center of your being and be satisfied? Only you can answer this question.

Ingrid said...

oh my god..you're on the no fly list? How the hell does that happen?? Does that count for int'l or domestic also??

insane..shame shame on 'them'!

Ingrid

enigma4ever said...

Any thing that flys...
here or abroad..
yeah...

WHY?
because I was a Community Organizer in a small NW town and I blew the whistle and investigated a BIG Company that was dumped millions pounds ( yes really) of toxic hazardous waste on a small county- and I tracked ALL of it....I reported it to the Government...but then Bush came to power...and I was not only hung out to dry on a HUGE Federal Case....I was put on Lists...because the chemical Company is very very good friends with the Bushs...

Most people , of the 84,000 on the NO FLY list, and ONE Millon on the Terra List are people who are being retaliated against....like Community Organizers...or lawyers who work with the ACLU...

Velcome to Amerika....

yes....a mom, a nurse is on the godamned list for trying to help her neighbors...

landsker said...

Hi Enigma,
I hadn`t known that the gumbermunt had applied such restrictions upon you.
They can never curtail your mind or your spirit.
Take heart.....perhaps it will be over sooner than we think... slightly off topic, but there is a little mountain near here called Cader Idriss.
Legends say that the mountain was once a meeting site for Kings, poets and the spirits of the netherworld, whilst from atop the peak, on clear days, can be seen both England and Ireland..

The local singers, who number many, have filmed a few scenes, and set it to music.
Whilst you are waiting for the list to be torn up, maybe the images and sounds will lift your spirit.
Hoping the poetry and the strength of community make it across the Atlantic.

the walking man said...

E...be angry, it is a good thing when felt for the right reasons. You stood up as so many who never would have and you pay the price, but the modalities of the world are such that you never know the price until the bill comes due.

The question is this...knowing now what you didn't know then, would you have still stood up? I am betting that you would have and said "fuck 'em" had they told you what the end result would have been...am I wrong?

enigma4ever said...

Walking Man::
I am not angry...not anymore...I am mostly sad..and there are 1000' s like me....so it is not such a lonely plight...I am what I am- I did what had to be done- confronted the Govement and the Company with their own documents....that were making 1000's so sick..and my neighbors and my son...so no- I would have done what needed to be done- Always....

Lansker::
thank you and thank you for the new place to take my mind and my soul....I am grateful...

WeezieLou said...

thnx for visiting and breaking the silence.............

enigma4ever said...

weezie..
above all else...we of Blogland are a Community..and when things happen we are still all here for each other...I read your post and it made me so sad.....you have had such a year...it's not right....

and yes...I have an elderly cat I am trying to tend...I do understand how hard it is to tend to these wonderful souls that we have in our lives...they are our family....and when they become fragile- especially cats...it is so hard....

politics and this government has wracked havoc on my life...makes me take things too seriously...I hope that one day that it will not be so....but I care about people in ways that many do not understand...

and I hate to see anyone in pain....

the walking man said...

All right then...so you know that no matter the consequences you would have done the same things you did...save lives, out a despicable harm upon your community, and you to this day pay the price for doing what needed to be done.

That is a not a cause for sadness, nor a cause for want to do what this government won't let you either.

Pride and satisfaction that people are living better because of your sacrifice maybe but not sadness.

Mandela spent three decades in jail for his actions. Be proud that in the pantheon of the eternal you stand alongside such as he.

enigma4ever said...

Walking Man...
I appreciate what you are saying....but I don't have pride in what I did, I really wish I did....I did what I needed to be done...and it drastically effected those around me- those I love...and that is what makes me so sad....I wanted my son to have a better world....

Thank you for understanding and trying to help me look at it differently..

the walking man said...

Your sons world is fine E. Has been fine. And will continue to be fine.

enigma4ever said...

Thanks Walking Man..
you are a good soul..
I do hope and pray that it all turns out okay...as any parent does...you are haunted by What transpires as a child grows....

thank you....